The goal

Just to warn you, this post will probably be pretty boring to read, so I'm not offended if you choose to just ignore it. I just have a few things to get off my chest.

So I know that my weight has been creeping up over the years, and having my babies hasn't helped much, so this week I finally decided to do something about and joined Weight Watchers. I have some friends who have been following their program for a while now and have lost so much weight and are healthier and happier for doing so, and I want that in my life too.

Yesterday I attended my first meeting, and even though I was half distracted trying to keep Emilie from eating some kid's crayons and Isaac from running around the room making his truck engine sounds, I was excited to learn about the new eating rules I'm going to start following. When I got home, I made what I thought was a sensible lunch, noticing the calories and portion sizes. After eating, though, I was still a little hungry. I tried a mid-afternoon snack when Emilie got up from her nap, and that helped a little, but I still didn't feel satisfied, and I got really scared seeing my points wasting away. For dinner, we went to a BBQ with Jarom's ham radio group and I had to be so careful what I ate, and once the food that I put on my plate was gone, I had to really refrain from going back for seconds! Then all night, I just kept stewing about how hungry I was. I kept having to say out loud, "I am full and satisfied! I am full and satisfied!"

So we'll see how day 2 goes. I'm sure that 90% of my hunger pains are psychosomatic and I'm not really as hungry as I think I am. I'm hoping that after a week or two of eating this way, I'll get more acclimated to it. I'm starting to see already how much I over eat, so if anything, it's helping me see some of the mistakes I have been making.

My first goal is to lose about 11 lbs and I'm hoping to lose that by the end of the month. I'll update my progress on my blog. Wish me luck!